This past weekend I met my first mini goal of losing 5% of my total weight since I started on November 12th. I have lost 11.6 pounds in 12 weeks, which is super exciting. My clothes are fitting bigger, I have more energy, and the best part is I feel better about myself. I can honestly say there hasn’t been a day that I have felt hungry or deprived. It truly has become a lifestyle change, I’ve noticed I’m making better choices because I want to, not because I feel like I have too. I can’t think of a single food that I crave all the time because I “can’t” have it, that is probably the most amazing thing I’ve felt since starting this program again. I have regained control of my life, and it is absolutely wonderful!
I thought I would take this opportunity to explain why I’ve started this journey for the final time. I am in a program for Medical Laboratory Technology (ie. I test blood, urine, poop etc.) this program has opened my eyes about all kinds of disorders and diseases and frankly I don’t want to become another subject. The idea of being on dialysis because diabetes destroyed my kidneys scares me more than anything. These situations became real to me like never before and allowed me to reflect on the choices I had been making. I decided that I want to be a happier and healthier version of myself and to do that I had to get real with myself about my weight. It’s easy to ignore what’s been staring at you in the mirror day in and day out and make sad little excuses to make you feel better. You tell yourself that you’re not getting bigger, your clothes are just getting smaller (most of us have been there, am I right?). It takes courage to look yourself in the eye and say “Self, we have got to fix this. It’s not going to be easy or fun all of the time but it’s time to face the facts, your clothes are not shrinking!!” I knew this would be a hard journey, but it was time. I knew myself, so I gave up all fast food (except for Subway) and I’ve been clean for well over 12 weeks. So if you’re in that place where I was 12 weeks ago, believe in yourself. You can do it.